Rant

 I need a safe place to speak my mind, not having anyone judge me or whatever. I know no one reads this and I'm fine with that. I need to say this because it bothers me. I hate it when people say shit about my favorite bands/artists that I love. It's like saying you hate yourself, but anyway. I won't use names or anything. He is not a pedaphile for dating someone really young back then, but to bring it up again? Why? Do we not have any shit to talk about? It's so stupid on how people dwell in the past. Anyway I needed to get this out.

Why did you become a CNA/nurse?

 For those who became a CNA or a nurse that works for a nursing home, memory care, home health? Why the fuck did you become one if you can't handle your job? Huh? I'm very pissed right now because 

A. y'all don't get paid enough

B. it's an easy job!

Case in point: my dad lives in a blank facility that has at least 3 aids there. He needs help for everything, but yesterday they called and said that "your dad has really red knees and purple feet" ok, we went today, and NOTHING! So what is your job really? Did you not want to care for my dad? Then please say it! Say "hey y'all need to take him home because he is too much for us" that is ok. If you say something and we don't see anything wrong with him? What does that make you look like? An idiot! Because you don't want to do your job of helping him. That isn't your job unless u want to go back to school for 4 years and rethink why did I become a fucking nurse?

I'll tell you why. It's because you think "oh this is pretty easy" then you actually do it, and you're like "oh this is so hard why am I here?" No you are here because you want to help. That's why you became a nurse to help your parents, not to stare at them and be like "hey shut up or I'm calling your family to come and help me out" NO YOU BECAME A NURSE BECAUSE YOU WANT TO HELP SAID PARENT NOT US HELP YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ugh! Y'all are useless when it comes to actually doing the work yourself. I'd say if I worked in the government, and I heard you say "oh this is so hard I wish I were at home" then I'd put you back in the 4 years and let you redo it until you can get your shit together!

The other thing I am pissed. Please do not be on your phone while you are working unless it's an emergency. Please do your fucking job without your phone! I know it's boring but hey that's your job so you do it! GET OFF YOUR FUCKING PHONE AND HELP THE ONES WHO NEED HELP!

Reason number 2948576768549858

 This is another reason why I totally loathe doctors of ANY kind! It doesn't matter if you're a nurse, surgon, doctors whatever. In this case the news showed surgons doing shit on this on man's vocal chords. I think they said the surgrey was for spine or back, whatever it was DO YOU FING JOB AT SURGREY!!!!!!!!! The poor man who got it the doctor paralyzed his voice on "accident" yeah I don't believe that stupid surgon for saying that it was on "accident". Now the poor man has a high singing/talking voice, before surgrey he actually sounded really good, but after he sounded kinda bad. ALL THANKS TO THAT STUPID MISTAKE BY THAT SURGON! Why I don't trust/believe in doctors at all. They give you shit, you take it, then you feel like shit, they make you have cancer, then you go through shit....sigh it's all a mess and guess what? WE HAVE TO PAY AN FING MILLION DOLLORS JUST FOR SEEING THE FUCKING DOCTOR!!!!!!!! THAT IS NOT WHY YOU BECOME A DOCTOR IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!!!!! YOU DON'T BECOME ONE FOR FAST MONEY!!!!!!!!! YOU YOUNG STUPID KIDS!!!!!!! You become one because you care about human bodys. ALSO YOU DON'T BECOME A DOCTOR JUST FOR ONE PART OF YOUR BODY! NO YOU BECOME ONE FOR ALL BODY PARTS, FROM HEAD TO TOE NOT FOR ONE PART OF YOUR BODY!!!!!!!!!

That's another reason why I loathe doctors is because you become a one doctor and not an all in one doctor, to save us money and time!!!!! You become a dentist it's more money and more time, same thing with eye, heart etc. IT'S NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why must we become doctors for one thing? Why not become one for ALL BODY PARTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's unfair for us to drive around our cities just to go see this doc when we can go see one doc for EVERYTHING! If I were to become a doc (I won't) I would become an all in one doc. Save you gas, time, money etc. You won't use your insurance because all the appts will be $25 in and out no questions asked. Your sugrey cost? Mmm probably $100 NOT A MILLION BUCKS LIKE OTHERS NEED TO PERFORM FOR YOU! This is my dream but I know people will be shitty about this because we need insurance WRONG! You need to save your money for your future, retirement. 

They're vloggers I watch who abuse their money with 3 kids under 10 and they are wasting it. They don't even work, or excuse me they do but it's all social media stuff. Uh that's great but you need a 9-5 job too! They love costco so much why don't they get a job from them? I still watch them but I cringe when they buy something big like a car/RV and bring it back in exchange for something different! Like why? I want to tell them so many times to not waste their money but I can't because their fans would gang up on me. 

If you're a doctor please consider on LISTENING TO YOUR PATIENTS! DON'T OVERHEAR AND GIVE THEM SHITTY MEDICINE THAT MAKES THEM WORSE! THAT'S NOT YOUR JOB, YOUR job is to heal us not make us worse so you can get more money from us. NOPE THAT'S NOT WHY YOU BECOME A FUCKING DOCTOR, YOU BECOME ONE TO HEAL US NOT TO GET FAST MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A major tip/warning when becoming a CNA/caregiver

I've been debating if I should tell people about this topic, because I watch this family in Alaska who's teen wants to be a CNA. Her great grandmother passed away just a few weeks ago, ever since that vlog where the mother of the daughter said "she wants to be a CNA" If you don't know CNA means, Certifited Nurse Assistants. Me as a caregiver to my dad wants to share this major tip, but I don't want to sound like it's all about me. It did happen to me yes, but for anybody wanting to become a CNA/caregiver needs to know. 

Back in October of 2021 my dad touched me inappropiately. Not going to say where, but he's done that and I've tried to stay away from him, but every now and then he will do that. He's been doing it more now that an actual CNA has been coming to take care of him. He'll hit her, touch her and cuss at her. She understands that he has dementia and that's just part of it. Last Tuesday he pinched me (I can't say where) but it hurt. Now I'm scared, and want to share my experience of what would happen if people at a young age and being a Christian too, to them but I have no idea how to word it to them without sounding that this daughter of their's would change her mind about being a CNA. 

All in all there's other people I would like to tell because they might be in my situation and they need to know. I have no idea how to tell people without seeming like I want attention. It's not like I can show them what happened because there was no camera. But it should be said. I'm just debating to tell not just the family, but to my twitter people too. There's a few people I've told on twitter about the situation, but I'd like to tell others what had happened without sounding graphic nor wanting attention. Because it did happen. 

People would look at this situation as an assault. If they didn't know the situation. For example: if I say to someone "hey I've been touched inappropriately" without context, they would say "oh that's an assualt please call the cops". I truly want to tell these people about my situation, but also don't want to give discourage to the kid that wants to be a CNA. I think she'll do great, but she does need to be I wouldn't say warned, but a heads up that this could happen. Wish me good luck!

If I were president

 I have been thinking about this for along time. Like why aren't people even talking about getting rid of guns permantely? Why not ban them all even the hunting ones? Look it's better than doing a bunch of backgrounds or having a license what not. It makes no sense on doing that when people would still use guns for "fun". I'd say ban them all and if you don't like then move to another country. I'm sick and tired of seeing massive gun violence in schools, malls, and now grocery stores. Why are we not banning them and doing more background checks? It makes no sense. If I were president I would ban them along with anything that can kill people. Except for kitchen knives. Those are sharp enough to kill people with too dang. But you need knives to cut your food with. If you use your knives FOR JUST FOOD WE'D BE FINE!

I was watching videos of people who drive and can use their cars as weapons too. If I were president, I would let your license taken away if you have more than 2 accidents per month. During those months you are not allowed to take another car, uber/taxi/rideshare all those, your friend's car, a bus/public transportation not even a train. Not a scooter, not anything that has wheels until that month is up then you can go places. If you continue to have crashes? More harsh things will come your way. Like, if you are doing it intentionally? You will go back to driving school and retake the test until you pass. Twist, you're license will be cut in half, you will be doing the written test, if you pass you will get a learners permit and so on. If you do it again, you are going to NOT be driving for a full year. These are all things I don't like and as president I can do this. If you use your car as weapons as in intentionally kill or hurt people. This will happen to you. This is to cut down all the wreckless drivers out there who don't care if they hit people and laugh it off. No you can kill your grandma, your parents, kids and pets. No we don't want to keep cleaning up after your crashes, and keep fixing cars and making cars/parts. It's a waste of time and energy. Time and energy we can be spending doing other things aside intentionally killing people. Own a boat, go boating or fiishing, just don't have wrecks. If you get wrecks on the boat the same thing will happen.

Oh I forgot to mention in the car, if you intentionally hit somebody with your car, and your car is fine? *michevious laugh* your car will be torn in to car parts for others. You need to get somewhere? Use your legs and it's how you're gonna get to the driving school too. So better stretch out your legs and use em. I don't care if your car is an expensive Tesla it will be scrapped down to parts for other cars to use. Muahahaha! 

It's been awhile

 Hello, it's been awhile remember me? I've just been doing some videos and just trying to live life with a dementia dad. How are you doing? I hope you are doing well and not letting this covid get to ya. I came here to rant but I don't want to rant in this post it doesn't seem fair really. I always come here to rant because social media is mean. At least here I have the comments turned off and very little people actually read my posts lol. Stay turned though I have more music to talk about. 

New music: Mountains vs. Machines

Ok they aren't exactly new but they are new to me. Sadly though there isn't enough information out there of this band, however if you love Fall Out Boy and Panic! At The Disco you can clearly in the singers voice Patrick Stump and Brendon Urie in his voice. It's why I love them honestly, however nothing can take away my love for FOB and Panic. That's my comparioson of them but they do have really good music despite they sound like them. Here is my favorite song by them, and like I said before they have no history nor pictures online and no music videos either, but they are really good. I recommend them! If there is any information about them I will update this post, for now I highly recommend them if you care for metal music. 

Do newscasters count as front liners?

So I wrote on a facebook page for a news and it got me thinking that they are providing us with the news day and night. Some are at the news station and some are broadcasting from home, but I still think they count as "front liners" too. They provide us with news, what to do and what not to do, so why shouldn't they be counted as heroes too? Heroes in our eyes are people who fight for the country, policeman, fireman. Those are what we call heroes, with how now is going we are calling doctors and nurses heroes. Why don't newscasters (whether you love them or not) I think should be followed in "front liners" too. That's what I told one of my local news stations but I don't think they read their timeline, but it's ok at least I did it and I feel good about it.

I am thinking of making them a video but I really don't know how to get the content I need for a video. I suppose I can use pictures but I really don't want to make a slideshow video. I'll have to try and get content of newscasters talking about covid-19. When that video is up I'll post it but for now I'll go ahead and publish this post.

Videos on youtube

I'm going to post whatever videos I want to put on here and just kind of explain it a little bit. Lets start with a mini on going series:

This is a friend's idea where they wanted to do an art project for Palaye Royale. It's clever and they wanted to do it video form because it's easier than for them to be overwhelmed and handling it on their own. It's a team effort. You can see week 2 (which was last week) here! Hope you enjoy, and week 3 will be posted on Sunday!

Introduction video! I really liked the old one that a friend had made which can be seen here but I've had that intro for a long time, I just needed something new. I really like making intros like this where it's all music I like rather than having people look at my face with music. I'd rather have these types of intros and ontros too. However, for vlogs I do have it more family like, but I don't really do vlogs anymore. This is just an introduction for when I'm making a music video.

This is the intro for vlogs that I would use, but like I said above I don't really make them anymore. I just wanted to share it!

Life update

Hello! This is going to be a pretty long one. Let's start off with this year. This is the hardest year on everyone just because of one messly disease! It's just shutdown the world basically to where we can't see families face to face, nor have parties etc. It's bad but we are seeing improvement which is a good thing. We need to have improvements other wise we'd be stuck inside or at home for the full year until they can make a vaccine for it. I for one am not scared of the virus and not worried either. It depends on where u live and what part of the city you are. I don't know about yours but my city has a map of where it's the heaviest. So for my city it's south of me. That's good to know where it's the most heavy at. I hope you are healthy and be mindful and we will get through this!

This next thing is about my dad. I don't want to go into too much detail, however it does need to be seen. He has dementia as we all know it's where u loose your mind. It's a noncurable disease which needs more attention towards. Not enough is being done for those who have it like my dad's side of the family. He has been this way since he retired basically. That was back in 2012 I believe and it's been 8 years and every year and everyday has been worse. The "worse" started back in 2017 when Hurricane Harvey hit south Texas and flooded my city. When we were evacuated he didn't want to leave the house nor did he got dressed. He left with a t-shirt and shorts. It was still raining when we were evcuated too. I was surprised we didn't get sick until a month later but still. Skipping to the end of last year and now. He has to wear diapers because he can't or doesn't know when to go use the bathroom. When he goes though he sits in there for a good 30 minutes. We don't know why but he does, he has to wear diapers. He has become more lazy and won't do anything until my mom or myself scream at him when we don't even want to do that. He won't do anything not even help with heavy things. Until I go out and do it and then he comes to help out. Basically what's been going on with my life.

I have also been getting further into making videos. I have become a self taught video editor. I still don't think I'm all that good but you be the judge. I have seen a lot of my friends say that I'm good and that they wish they can do that too. I do believe that, however it's still not the best of what I can do. What videos I make are music videos for friends, video edits of Fall Out Boy, and other music I love. I also have interviews on my channel too so you'll see some Fall Out Boy ones and some vlogs too. I don't like to vlog but after seeing some vloggers kind of inspired me. I'll get into that later as for now I just love making videos and I really don't do it for the views really. I do it to show off my work, that may sound lame but it's really not. I have see other people who do their videos for views but that's because they are being paid for by youtube and I'm not. I just do it for the entertainment of it.